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Severe Eating Disorder, HELP!?
Question : Severe Eating Disorder, HELP!?
I have had bulimia for the past 12 years. I have been to one treatment center about 10 yrs ago. It did not really help and just put us in more debt. My family and husband know that I have had an eating disorder in the past…they think I am over it. They do not know I struggle with it every minute of everyday. I binge and purge over 30 times a day. I know it is horrible and I know all of the medical problems that go with it. I want to get help, but we have no insurance. We cannot afford to send me to another treatment facility. We can ‘t even afford to see a therapist. Unless you have had a severe eating disorder, you do not understand how it can trap you, so please don’t preach to me about the harm I am doing to myself…it is not that simple…I wish it were! I wish I could just stop, but it is like I go crazy if I can’t do my eating disorder behaviors…it is really like I start shaking and going through withdrawl. I am afraid I will have this problem forever. I want help but we cannot afford it. We had to file for bankruptcy last year because of this whole mortgage mess and I had an accident the left me unable to work for 8 mos, so we could not pay the bills. Does anyone have any stories of recovery…other than praying? I don’t believe in God, Jesus or prayer…I have been let down far too many times and have lost faith in religion, so don’t tell me to pray. I need real advice from people who have suffered or are suffering from an eating disorder. Thanks
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Answer by Tim O
Stop shoving your finger down your throat; or don’t! No one can stop it but you…good luck.
Most eating disorders are not about being slim or anything, they’re about control, patients feel that they have no control in their lives, that it’s the other people around them who controls their lives, so, what they do is controlling the only thing they think they can: Eating.
not eating at all, or vomiting after gives them the feel that they’re in control of their own lives.
Why do they feel this way?, How to deal with the real problem? That’s what therapy is for. Some patients were abused as children (physically, psychologically, both), or grew up in a very dysfunctional environment.
I do have to tell you, you need therapy. But i also understand therapy is not for free.
Try to do some real insight. Think how did this start, when, what was going on in you life when it start, how did it made you feel, maybe you can get some idea about the true origin of this. Ask your parents, or close relatives, they will give you an idea on how did they perceive you. Be prepared for some strong fighting when you ask them, you will not hear nice things, but it is all part of a healing process
Good luck