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Eating Disorder/ Anorexia/ Possible bulimia? Please Read =[?
Question : Eating Disorder/ Anorexia/ Possible bulimia? Please Read =[?
I’ve been in recovery for anorexia for about 2 months now. I used to be 108 pounds at 5’6″ and now I’m around 114. I saw a picture of me at my worst 2 days ago and it really set me off- all I could think about was how good I looked and how fat I’ve become.
This, of course, is not on track with my treatment plan. It was my birthday yesterday and to celebrate my parents got me a huge chocolate cake, and followed it with words of how proud they are that I am recovering. It was absolutely painful to eat the cake, I could barely swallow it- I didn’t want to disappoint them.
Then, I felt so guilty that I drank tons of water and…well… purged. I had never done this before, which scared me. I read that it only gets rid of like 1/2 the calories so while my parents were out together I went on a 3 mile run to burn off the rest. I spent the rest of the evening measuring/weighing/calculating body fat %.
I have no idea where or how I went this wrong in two days. 2 months of recovery wasted in 2 days. I am so so so ashamed. I can’t even think of my parent’s reactions if they were to find out.
How can I get myself on track again without intervention (medical or parental)?
bulimia intervention
Best answer:
Answer by Rachel
Seriously- tell your parents. They love you, they may be dissapointed at first. But they will be proud that you had the strength to ask for help. I hope that helps you!!
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#2 written by indi is drunk 1 year ago
It’s kind of understandable that you did that… if you forced yourself to eat something that you find bad, once it’s gone, you will wish you hadn;t had it and porbably do anything you can to reverse what you did. You are still on track; just because you purged doesn’t mean your 2 months of recovery is wasted. Just don’t keep making yourself sick, you will think you can stop whenever you want but after a while it gets addictive and you can’t. Just forget about it, and concentrate on getting better. Well done for getting as far as you have :¬)
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#4 written by Jody 1 year ago
It’s okay.
Relapse is part of recovery. The pictures of yourself triggered your disease, that’s all. Don’t make a big deal about it. It happens. It still hurts to eat and it will for a while, we don’t recover overnight.
Overeaters Anonymous and Al-anon and Ala-teen Family Groups can help you tremendously, I wish you would go, it’s free and people there will help you understand and change the way you think, slowly, at your own pace. You really can be thin, happy, joyous, and free.
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well first its not uncommon for former anorexics to fall into bulimia while trying to recover so you should be careful about that.
Secondly stop beating yourself up about it. Your recovery wasn’t wasted so long as you try to get back on track. It is a very long road with lots of ups and downs. If you cant learn to be a little easier on yourself when you hit a bump in the road you risk falling off again.
Tell your doctors. Which ever ones you have right now. Staying disordered is all about maintaining the secret. Admit to your slip up and do so without feeling shameful or guilty or bad or a failure. Instead feel proud of yourself for having the courage and the honesty and willingness to recognize your behavior admit to it openly and stop it in its tracks.
If you don’t have a counselor your should. Its a very complicated and difficult thing to recover from an eating disorder and they can help you sort out and address these and other situations as they come up.