Archive for October, 2010

Question : Will you help me get a scholorship by comenting my letter.?
Everyone has to overcome things in life. Sometimes it’s with their family or with friends, or even the stressors of everyday life. But when the thing that needs overcame is a chemical imbalance in your brain, the struggle can seem like a lost cause.
From the second I hit middle school it felt like the world turned around against me. My family and my relationships went downhill, along with the few that I had with my peers. For two years it felt like I had to deal and suffer with everything on my own.
My mental condition continued to deteriorate into more negative areas unt
+il in eighth grade I found myself a coping skill. I turned to self harm to try and escape from all of the emotional chaos that I was dealing with. As a freshman I was finally caught and the mysterious appearance of multiple scars were finally explained to my parents. Quickly following that day I was sent to Providence, a mental stabilization hospital, for one week. Within that week I was diagnosed with severe depression.
Not long after that I began to show signs of an eating disorder and began cutting again. I moved away to a new correctional facility for a month this time with the same results: severe depression and EDNOS. Everyone had high expectations and hope for a recovery from me. The one thing no one expected was for things to get worse.
In July 2008 I made a suicide attempt that lead me to another three and a half weeks in a new residential treatment center up in Washington. It wasn’t until then that everyone really tried to find out what was wrong. After those three months I continued to carry my diagnoses of severe depression and EDONOS. But added onto the list was Borderline personality disorder, or Bi-polar, something I thought was going to keep me from my future.
There are three main things that have kept me alive and motivated since my return home: my family and friends, my medications, and school. They are the only things that have remained a constant force in my life, but I think it was school the most. With family and friends you can fight or disagree with, medications you can mess up on, but school is always there.
So as I entered my second term of my junior year I depended on school. The need to learn and get good grades weighted heavier than the desire to give into my past. Math and science I used to avoid like the plaque but now they are the subjects I turn most to when in need of a mental escape. A mind focused on a math problem can’t slip into the dark. A mind trying to understand physics won’t fall into depression and silence. And so I discovered my best coping skill: learning.
“Idle hands are the devils play toys” is an old saying but for my life I would say and idle mind is the devils whipping boy. School kept me busy, focused, and working hard. I still struggle, every day I have to fight to keep my mind from slipping into that area that leads back to the razors. But I can do it. I will live to see college.
I am going to graduate in June this year as a senior and at seventeen years old, an age that I never thought I would see. School helped motivate me, kept me going. And with this scholarship I can continue school, continue working hard and learning and growing. School, however broad a range it covers, is my strongest coping skill. At one point in time I planned on never seeing college. But I’m here now. I survived myself and I am so close to my goals. Hopefully, with the Beat The Odds scholarship, I can be that much closer.
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Best answer:

Answer by NotAnyoneYouKnow
Ashley:

Check your email. I proofread this for you, and sent you a lengthy response.

Let me know if you have any other questions.

Good luck!